Saturday, September 22, 2012

Thank you Augusta

Today as we have been at the hospital with Aaron's grandmother Augusta, I thought about how my life would be different without her influence. She has been in the hospital since last week - her kidneys have shut down as well and she has not been awake since Thursday afternoon. Today, her breathing has slowed tremendously and as I write this, her pulse has slowed down to a level almost undetectable.

1.) I would not have my wonderful mother-in-law, Kara in my life. I am so grateful to have her as my mother-in-law and I hope she reads this. Kara, your support from the very beginning of my relationship with your son has been an unparalleled source of support. I am so glad and so happy that we have such a great relationship between the us. I know that no matter what, you are there to support Aaron and me. There are no words for that aside from thank you. You will be a fantastic grandmother.

2.) Without Kara, there would be no Aaron my amazing husband and best friend. I can not imagine my life without him and am beyond thankful everyday for the random meeting at a graduation party. The influence of his grandmother and mother on him and the importance of good relationships between husband and wife is unmatched. He is a great husband because of the women he grew up with all his life.

3.) The amazing extended family of aunts, cousins, and their wives. Marla and Clair, Kale and Katie, Dane an Stephanie - you are my family and all the support from you has helped us keep our sanity through the craziness we have been through. Aaron and I would be lost without you.

A great woman who was in charge of a great family and I have been privileged to be part of it for 5 years.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

I think the universe has a sick sense of humor

Last night, my wonderful husband and I were on our way to have a dinner and date night out just the two of us. It had been kind of a rough week (as tends to happen when you are a one income family and the bills pile up and up). We were going to go out to celebrate my pay raise and to do something I have wanted to do for 3 months - get a memorial tattoo for my mom.

As we are driving and about to get on the highway, we get a phone call that redirects our entire life right now.

Aaron's mother calls to say that his grandmother, who is 97 years old, is having gall bladder issues and they are going to have to do surgery. Now the surgery itself is not a complicated in removing her gall bladder but it is dramatically complicated due to her age.

We came to the hospital immediately to be with his family right now.

I had to make sure that Aaron's mother was taking care of herself because she doesn't do that in stressful times, she had been at the hospital since 3:30 am, had hardly eaten much food and was completely exhausted.

We are back here super early because the doctor was going to come in and talk about when they want to do the surgery.

It is very scary due to the potential issues and to watch another family go through something I just recently went through with the serious family trauma.

Why the hell does this stuff keep happening right now??? Can't anyone get a break?

So we are just waiting now to find out what the plan is going to be and here with many items to work on throughout the day with not knowing if they are going to do surgery today. I am made sure that Aaron's mother was not having to worry about driving herself, has eaten breakfast, and is taken care of because she is focusing her attention on her mother.

I would be great with 2012 ending anytime now and being able to move onto something better.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Well a new plan is in place

I spoke to my RE's office last week and we are getting a plan in place for the FET (frozen embryo transfer). We have started on the ins process - getting it all cleared with them to approve the cycle and the medication. I am not interested in running into the same issues we did in the past with them - this hoop and that hoop.

I received my statement of approval from the company today stating that we are approved for the FET. At least that is one hoop we are officially through, hopefully not too many more to go.

General time frame is off of my next period to start the medicine - a pill 3 times a day for about 2 weeks before I go in for an ultrasound to see how the lining of the uterus is developing. If things are looking good, we will come in the next week to have the transfer.

It's much less invasive than the "fresh" cycles because I do not have to go into the doctor's office all the time to have ultrasounds and blood work. I will only have to take off part of the day for the ultrasound and then for the transfer which will be scheduled for a Friday so I can do the bed rest over the weekend and be back at schoo on that Monday. Their success rate is nearly as high as the fresh cycle, so we are hopeful that this will take and we can be done with all this nonsense.

I really hope this is the end of the road for me because I am dwindling at the end of a rope here, holding on by just a few threads of the rope. There isn't enough of the rope to tie a knot to hold onto anymore.